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This is the middle of the week and I’m still smiling. I’m still happy. And everyone around me is surrounded by my happyness. And they can see it and feel it that I’m totally okay. I’m freaking them out, because I’m not crying and stuff, instead I’m holding my head high and smile. I realized that I’m much stronger than I thought I could ever be, and it’s such a good feeling. I’ve never thought that I can go on this easily…but I can, I’m able to. Last weekend I was totally broken, and couldn’t stop thinking about what did I do wrong, when I completely knew, that this is all not my fault. And just like my mom and my friends told me so…this thing is not finished…and yesterday it seemed that it’s definitely not. I was walking down the street with one of my girls, and we decided to call up “my” boy’s roommate,coz he’s such a good friend of my girl…he didn’t reply, so we called up “my” boy…then he texted…My girl told him that she’s with me, and his reply was:”Tell her, I said Hello!” I was like..okay…I say hello too…Then they started to text about regular things, later I went home. It was about 11 pm and I was still learning Literature when my phone rang. I was like, WTF, who’s missing me this late? And I saw the name…I didn’t know what to do, but then I answered. We had a great chat, he was so kind and cheerful, and it was like nothing ever happened last weekend. He started to talk about what did he do in these past days, I told him what I did, and it was just…so good. Then he said goodbye after a looong 5 seconds,told me to sleep well and talk to you soon and stuff. When I put my phone down I realized I was shaking. Totally shaking. I didn’t know why, maybe cause it was so good to hear his voice again. I don’t know what’s coming next…mom calls it Round number Two… :) After all, I’m happy that we’re talking again. I must admit that I really missed him..I’m not quite sure about what I want from him now, and what does he want from me, but I’ll figure it out. Now I just keep on being happy, and we’ll see. First of all I want to be his friend…and secondly..who knows? :) All I gotta do is just wait for the weekend, and everything reveals..I mean I hope so :)
xo
