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It’s like it was a million year ago I wrote. I don’t know where to begin. I had fights @ school with my “friends”. But it’s a closed case now and I’m glad that we could talk it out once and for all. Now I know who’s my best friend, who are real friends and who are JUST friends. I thought like it was a loss at first but now I know that it was the best for everyone. I admitted that I was wrong and I did bad things with several of my friends. My mom says that it was a healthy thing to do, coz when you just shake it off of your shoulder it means trouble. I’m glad that I could confess myself these things. But I would be nowhere without Sunday :) I’m not quite good at expressing my feelings but she’ll teach me how to do that and I’ll teach her how to be more confident. I think it’s all going well, it’s not that easy as I thought it’s going to be but I’ll try my best. I don’t wanna be a rude person, I don’t want to hurt anybody, I don’t want to walk over on people’s feelings, coz actually I’m not that kind. I was born to help people, to listen to them and care about them when it’s needed just like my mother. And I wanna prove it that I’m able to change into a good person. School things are going okay anyways, we’re having our fall break this week. I gotta learn so much but I really can’t get myself into it. I spent a long weekend in Wien with my family. It was good to be there. I met via Sunday on Tuesday, we had fun! :) Yesterday I was out with some friends, watched Michael Jackson’s: This Is It! Damn. I’m speechless. It was quite unsettling. It completely came out onscreen how a good person he was. His every second word was Love and God bless you. He was an incredible person and I can’t say any more. Everyone needs to see that movie. It’s fantastic. The best movie I’ve seen nowadays. God bless you too, Michael! <3
Today I met with my girl, Réka. We cooked a fruit cake, it was such an interesting thing to do and funny of course. But at the end we were really satisfied. It was delicious. :)
About “my” boy…we haven’t talked since then. It’s freaking me out a lot. But I can’t do anything at all. I’m still saying myself that maybe tomorrow we’ll talk or something will happen…but nothing’s coming. Wish I could do something but I’m tired. Of course I know I deserve better than him but…I can see the whole word in his eyes. I saw. And I can see how idiot I actually am. No more words about this thing.
I think this is all for now.
xo
